I go by Dana.

Apparently, I’m a twenty-something female. I’m also a second third fourth year medical student studying  first year psychiatry resident in the US. I’m also also, someone with my own experience in mental illness. This is my personal blog, and hopefully, others in the medical field with mental illness will find it to be a means of support.

Why blog? Because I like to write and having mental illness is something the medical community doesn’t normally admit to. I want to share my experiences with the world (even if by “world” I just mean 2-3 readers on a weekly basis).

If you’re into names, then for the sake of background my diagnoses encompass: severe recurrent Major Depressive Disorder (last big episode in 2014), a past history of Borderline Personality Disorder that has turned into traits only, eating disorder problems that I guess can be best categorized as anorexia binge/purge subtype, and some anxiety issues of the social kind now and then. But, save for knowing that what I’m dealing with is not some construct of my hyperactive imagination, I’m not a fan of categories/names. I am not just a diagnosis, I am a person.

And because my mental health issues are just 0.00005% of me, here are a few facts about myself:

  1. I love dogs.
  2. I don’t like the smell of newly cut grass or rain.
  3. I’m a geek. Pretty sure everyone in medicine falls somewhere in the geek spectrum. Even the surgery jocks.
  4. I don’t like chewing gum.
  5. I want to be a psychiatrist. Looking to live up to that crazy psychiatrist stereotype. Yes, I use humor as a coping mechanism often.
  6. Did I say I love dogs?
  7. Still live with my parents. Unfortunately, there’s no salary in medical school.
  8. I love windy days.
  9. Sometimes depression turns me into a blob, but I’m a very spontaneous, quirky person, with excellent timing for humorous comments.
  10. One of the most cherished hospital anecdotes I have is thanks to an older patient with a terminal illness. She was struggling with depression and started crying halfway through the interview. I held her hand, which is something very out of character for me, but being depressed myself I knew it was the least I could do. And then I found out she was ticklish during the physical exam. I can still remember her face and her laughter…

So, care to join me?

*Trigger warnings are provided in any post I feel might be triggering. But if you find my blog is triggering in general, please don’t read it. Your mental health is more important than some random blog you found google-searching “naked women trying not to pee blogspot” (and yes, I got that in my stats once).

**The images, GIFs, and artwork in this blog are not mine unless I explicitly state so. If you want me to remove an image that is yours, contact me and I’ll have no problem removing it.

***Last, but not least, I am not a doctor, I’m still a medical student, and this is just my personal blog. Take anything I say with a grain of salt, I mean, for all intents and purposes, it could be one of my dogs who’s actually writing this blog.

  1. DM said:

    came to you via “freud and fashions” blog just now 🙂 I appreciated your candor in your “about” section..tells me you are genuine person. My take on people and their issues…I think everyone has issues, it’s just that the brave ones are actually doing something about it..ie. seeing someone to help them work through whatever it is that has them bamboozled or stuck. Depression and anxiety issues runs in our family. Those just don’t happen to be my issues. I have only had one moderate to severe season of depression personally. It sucked. felt like I was stuck in emotional quick sand. could not get myself out no matter how much positive thinking I practiced. anyway, just wanted to say “hi” I was here reading your blog this afternoon. 😉 DM


    • Hey there! Thank you so much for reading and for your feedback, I really appreciate it. I’m glad you’ve been able to curb depression and anxiety, they’re such difficult demons to deal with right? And yes, Iike to be as genuine as my semi-anonimity allows me to be…I find candor is something society is lacking in these days and we really need to just let loose and build deeper relationships. If I can get just one person to relate and feel better thanks to my being brutally honest about my imperfections, then I’ve reached my goal. Hope to hear more of you and take care 🙂

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  2. Maggie Mae said:

    Hi Dana. Just wanted to let you know of my presence on your blog. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

  3. hello 🙂 You seem like a personable person even if you don’t think so, and if indeed a dog is writing this blog the world is indeed a very very mad world. That’s “paw” I’ve got to say for “Bow Wow” lol. I look forward to catching up on your blog 🙂


  4. F68.10 said:

    My mother is a borderline psychiatrist…
    I do not mean to be rude, but do you plan to have children?
    If so, do you plan on being doctor? Or do you plan to know what’s best for them? Or do you plan to impose your own illness representations on them?
    This might be a provocative comment, and I wish to apologise. However, I wish to warn you of the dangers of confusing care with love, and even more so in the context of a coercive medical practice. Exaggerating symptoms is so easy, and in psychiatry, it’s tantamount to producing false symptoms.
    Be careful that your children won’t be a medium through which you’ll attempt to validate your expertise in the eyes of your peers. All the more if you really are borderline.
    Just to let you know: my family is litteraly now a massacre, on medical terms. And I do not believe that to be something that came out of the blue…
    After reading my comment, please feel free to delete it. But please do think, as a psychiatrist, and a scientist, as to how abnormal illness behaviours arise in a family context.
    Your kids will never be perfect. Just so you know… And there are some things they’ll never forgive, no matter how much psychiatric pressure they’ll have witnessed being applied to them.


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