Oh my…I am so tired. I don’t even know what that last post was about. This whole not sleeping thing is really getting to me. Yes, dance class makes me feel wonderful, but only when I can muster up the energy to go and dance the whole hour and a half. Last week I had to stop halfway through some routines because I was too damn tired to keep going. In other words, I have zero stamina.
Yesterday I fell asleep on my bedroom floor. Keeping my back straight while I sleep helps, seeing as my shitty sleep has me with daily back pain. 10mg of Ambien doesn’t help, it’s like taking a breath mint. Melatonin doesn’t help. Earplugs don’t help. Relaxing noises app doesn’t work. I. Am. A. Zombie. I feel like I’m being stretched thin as the seconds go by. And today….today I woke up feeling so utterly depressed. Hadn’t woken up feeling like that in quite a while.
I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s only a matter of time until the good times will come to a stop and I’ll be so sleep deprived depression will come-a-knocking more persistently.
Geez, I have way too much in my head right now. Sleep deprivation, away rotation applications, Step 2 CK, food, food, food….did I mention food?
There’s something wrong with me and I can’t put my finger on what it is. That’s never a good sign.