I was feeling pretty sad yesterday.
I went to a health fair with two friends to volunteer. That was in the morning. Things were going ok and I felt energized next to my friends.
However, everything took a turn when I got home. After a few hours I decided to text my crush to ask him some questions about ophthalmology. Granted, I was simply hoping I could start up a decent conversation. Last time I had spoken to him was on Wednesday, and as he always tells me to not hesitate to ask him questions, well, I did.
I was taken aback by his responses. First off, he took quite a while to respond. On top of that, he was very curt, or at least that’s how I felt he was being. So that’s why my day took a turn.
And then I realized that I was letting my BPD thoughts get out of hand. First, I barely know this guy. Second, he doesn’t owe me anything. I was splitting him in black and white and I was letting myself get carried away.
I’m getting way too attached to this guy.