Don’t have much to say today except that I’m exceptionally tired. I’m back at home for the weekend after a 2 and a half hour drive.
I wrote an email to M explaining how I’ve been. In general, I’ve been OK. I think.
However, I’ve been having suicidal thoughts at random moments. Passive thoughts, but still uncomfortable to deal with with such frequency. I told M about this and she told me to call her office so I could explain better what these thoughts are like. I called her, and explained everything to her.
But what I couldn’t explain to her was that mostly I felt not so good last week because she can be quite impersonal in her emails.
It makes me feel like any other patient. And I don’t like it.