This is going to be short one.
Just wanted to say I’m sorry about my previous post. I was very distressed yesterday and things didn’t end well. I’m a bit better now, just left a message for M to call me to straighten things out. She probably just had something come up or maybe I misunderstood her and thought I had my appointment yesterday. So that’s that.
I’m having a lot of trouble with BPD lately. I don’t know if it’s the stress from Step 1 that’s messing with my brain or what. But I almost cried right now over the smallest thing, having to do with my sister MM. I’m seeing her all bad now, just like I did with M yesterday.
All of this makes me doubt whether I can be a doctor, let alone a psychiatrist. I really don’t want BPD to mess up my career. Is it possible? Is it possible to be a doctor? A good one?