For some reason depression reminds me of stretching chewing gum with your fingers. It’s slow and it stretches and keeps going for what seems like an eternity.
Time changes when you’re depressed. You forget days, weeks, minutes…it all becomes a mess of nothing. It becomes this slow, droning voice in your head: “Is today yesterday? 3 months have gone by? I thought it was just a week…”
It hits you suddenly. The first thing I noticed before being diagnosed was not being able to concentrate…on anything. Classes were a huge mess of words, numbers, days, lectures. Tedious. Suicidal thoughts as soon as I entered the amphitheater each morning I went to class.
Last week I thought I was in remission. This week I think I’m relapsing. I can barely concentrate. There’s a difference between not studying because you’re lazy and not studying because you can’t. You sit in front of the computer hours on end with your mind blank, nowhere to be found.
Hello, World. Anybody out there?